Availability Status

I always dread being asked about my status (read: availably single, happily attached, or just dating around). It's the follow up questions that further make matters worse. If you have an affirmative answer, the next most likely question would either be how long have you been into it or how many relationships have you gone through prior to the present one. On the other hand, if your answer is a negative one, you would either get the shocked "Why not?" inquiring looks or the sympathetic "I'm sorry." look. I don't know why I dread answering these kind of questions. I'm not sure if it's because of the lack of answers and/or explanations I've got up on my sleeves when asked about it, or perhaps it could also be my fear of being put into a certain stereotype. Some people can be judgmental. They conjure up their own assumptions about you ranging from being too picky for one's own good to being too indifferent to be bothered with matters regarding the heart.

Honestly I couldn't careless about my answer. But when they do the follow ups, that's when I start to get conscious of myself. I get a little disoriented so much so that I start asking myself, what the hell is wrong with me? Why am I still availably single? But fortunately, I don't stay in this place too long. I snap out of it and ask back, why not so? As long as I'm happy living the single life and as long Prince Charming is not ready to drop around the corner just yet, I don't see it as a necessity to have an "attached" sign on my heart. I always remind myself that I can't give in to pressure. I can't go into a relationship for the wrong reason. You cannot just commit to a person for the sake of doing so or to satisfy some urges or what have you. You have to learn how to sort and differentiate the real feelings from the short-lived ones. You commit because you know you seriously and sincerely want it period, and not for any other reason.

Right now, I don't think I do want it just yet or maybe I do. I can't say for sure. I guess I would just have to always have a suitable answer in handy...just in case someone asks again.